markb110 wrote:

Dare I say it (and not meaning to give any offence or excuses for the idiots) we in this country are not used to death as a society.

Death is something most people see through a Hollywood film, and then see the same actor in the next movie.

CNN and Sky news show disasters and wars around the world but show only broken buildings, not broken bodies so not to cause offence or risk complaints.

People pass away behind closed doors (hospital, care home) not in view of neighbours. having sat with both parents for their last 24 hrs it is certainly not like the Walton's or any other TV show. I'll leave that there.

Until these people lose friends and families it will never hit home because death only happens to someone else, not directly affecting their lives.

The law and with the backing of the army has to go in hard, but fare, we cannot appear to be like a communist country.

Our troops must also be given the assurance that their judgement is final and that there is not a bleeding heart lawyer waiting to pounce in ten years time.

Stay safe all.

Doc P wrote:

I’ve seen too much death and sadness for any one life in my career and I’m sorry to say that it’s broken me. I can’t carry on intensive care medicine any longer (confession - I’ve burnt out twice now, and so I’m stopping for my own good).

Death is Ok most of the time. Eventually, we all die. If it’s any comfort death is far, far more unpleasant to watch than it is to die. The body has ways of disconnecting consciousness near the end and we can ‘manage’ most suffering (Palliative Medicine has made an entire medical specialty of it).

What’s worrying me is that sometimes death isn’t right nor fair nor just. Those deaths haunt you. You carry them with you. I carry many with me (and the cries and desperation of their loved ones). There will potentially be many unfair, unjust deaths in the coming months if we lack absolute resources to treat. That is terrifying to me.

Damn Mate, hope you're OK.

I had an incident a few years ago that left me heavily traumatized and numb, bottled it up and only became worse. it would go round and round in my head for hours, Days,weeks, months and years. I Struggled with sleep. I wondered how i would do next time despite there being no next time, how i could have done things different and how that could have had a different outcome... I refused to admit i had a problem.

I saw councillors, and all that and asking how i felt about it didn't help me one bit.

One day i saw somebody in a similar situation online and i wrote down what had happened in my event second by second, i wrote it factually and without emotion. It helped me to accept what had happened, that i acted correctly, that i would do the same again under the circumstances and got a lot of Thoughts out of my mind. Really helped me.

I went from having daily reminders of my incident set off by a cool breeze to maybe only thinking about it months apart. Today being an exception.

I'm not going to lie and say that i'm all OK, but i'm mostly there. I struggle with Relationships as i can seem distant and protective.

Ultimately it doesn't matter where i was, what i did and under what circumstances i was under.
It all boils down to that I was there and did the best that i could given the circumstances, nobody and not even myself could have asked for more.

Not saying you should do what i did, but accepting that you have a problem is the first and largest step. It can only get better DocP and i hope it does. I'm on IG: https://www.instagram.com/osloblue42/
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